There's memories we don't know yet
And skeletons we haven't met
There's demons not yet inside our dreams
And right now, right now is all we see
But tomorrow we won't.

Right now everything is a triple feature
Yesterday's, today's, and tomorrow's creatures
Stalking the night, but the days are real
And I'll have to assume you know what you feel
Because I know I don't.

Every feeling I can muster inside of me
Brings shadows of yesterday's monsters behind me
To chase away the predecessors of a smile
That nobody has seen in quite awhile
And may never be again.

The evenings spent beside sweet melodies
Knitting webs of tired, hollow memories
Are lost to me and thought about in vain
Because those thoughts only ever inspire pain
And he calls me friend?

How can I look sweet love in the eye
And yet still feel this way inside?
Stardust confusion scattered all over
While my mind and heart and soul concede supernova
But I can still say I love him.

Scrunching eyes and forehead and o.d.-ing on aspirin
Long-lost headache putting me in a talespin
Feeling like I may hyperventilate
Stuck watching the broken fan fail to oscillate
But I'll still say I'll never leave him.

I'll sweep it away under the doormat
Where I welcome love in and usher him out
But am I risking the loss of all sanity?
Can I laugh at such hilarity?
I can't even grin.

But with tomorrow, today, and yesterday behind me
And so many closet skeletons pawing inside me
I think it may be best for me to just get out
There's not enough room in this closet right now
And I'm trying to lock myself in.

-June 17th, 1999-